Ponder Ponder, My Mind Just Wanders

Its been a long day. What I did? Nothing. Spent my time pondering over things I neglected in the past- me.
Somebody asked me to describe myself. Well, I don't really have an answer to that. However, I do have some glimpses of myself; some I like, some I just accept. I'm a fallible human being and it took me oh-so-many years to accept that. See? That was a glimpse. So yeah, going about living my life, not drawing a personality for myself, makes me wonder if I'm being zen here or just safe, hiding in the shadows of my thoughts.
People have come and gone from my life and so have their opinions about me. I just went with the flow. Became those opinions when I was around them. So it left me confused when they drifted and made me crave for answers. Side note- 'drifted away' feels like we're still trying to hold onto to the person while 'left' feels so devoid of hope. Anyway, coming back, so I decided to just stop. Put that annoying sound of opinions in my mind to rest. And just see for myself as I am.. now. Feel whatever I'm feeling, no judgements. As Rainer Milke said 'no feeling is final'. No rush to put myself in a mould and use that mould till I get tired of it or till it gets weary.
That's that I guess. Thank you for stopping by and spending some time with me and my thoughts.
If at all you ever find yourself wondering 'who am I?' Just add another word to your question- 'now'.
Let me know if there's an answer to that. :)

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